Satsuki... [ just hearing her voice those points from the dream was hard enough, but then to have to also find out about the jealousy? just what is she supposed to do with that information?
Jen frowned, looking down at her hands as they clutched at her ankles to stop her from fidgeting. ] I. I don't know what to say. About any of that. I don't want you to be jealous, but at the same time I can't stop you from feeling that way.
No. Not really. I mean - selfish would be wishing I'd break things off with Kara. You're just... I guess it's a normal feeling? [ Jen wouldn't know. but then again... ] Like. Try not to think of it as a rejection, like what happened with Sakura.
[ she really really didn't want to bring that up at a time like this, but it was relevant. the way Satsuki had taken the same exact wording and just directed it at Jen instead of the other girl did not go unnoticed. one doesn't forget something like that. ] Just. I found someone who makes me happy, and what she wants lines up with what I need. My ... comfort zone.
... -Well. She DID wish for that. But she didn't say it, largely because of what else Jen said. Kara was good for her. She'd been so much happier, so much more fulfilled in her life since they got together. It was impossible for Satsuki not to notice. To wish for that was selfish, not thinking at all for what Jen needed in her life, things Satsuki was well aware she needed.
... But it didn't stop her from feeling it. For thinking... 'why wasn't I good enough?'. And really, she knew. Satsuki wasn't what Kara needed. It didn't make it sting any less.-
I know you did. And I know that's what I wanted for you.
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Jen frowned, looking down at her hands as they clutched at her ankles to stop her from fidgeting. ] I. I don't know what to say. About any of that. I don't want you to be jealous, but at the same time I can't stop you from feeling that way.
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I just couldn't keep it in any longer... I'm sorry. I must seem really selfish, right about now...
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[ she really really didn't want to bring that up at a time like this, but it was relevant. the way Satsuki had taken the same exact wording and just directed it at Jen instead of the other girl did not go unnoticed. one doesn't forget something like that. ] Just. I found someone who makes me happy, and what she wants lines up with what I need. My ... comfort zone.
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... But it didn't stop her from feeling it. For thinking... 'why wasn't I good enough?'. And really, she knew. Satsuki wasn't what Kara needed. It didn't make it sting any less.-
I know you did. And I know that's what I wanted for you.