I remember the whole talk. About shouldering the burden of loneliness for the sake of someone else. About muting my own feelings, about ignoring yours, because we couldn't be together in a way that would satisfy either of us... Because of your life, because of mine.
And I had... -She sniffled, rubbing at her eyes.- I had convinced myself, both in that dream and in real life, that if you'd found someone you could be low key with, that you could keep a secret, you'd be fine and I just kind of took you for granted and... -She was rambling. Another sniff, and she shook her head to focus.-
But it's not... I'm so, so jealous of Kara. I'm jealous of what she's been able to do for you. I'm sorry... I think I would be even if the dream hadn't been so blunt about this.
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I remember the whole talk. About shouldering the burden of loneliness for the sake of someone else. About muting my own feelings, about ignoring yours, because we couldn't be together in a way that would satisfy either of us... Because of your life, because of mine.
And I had... -She sniffled, rubbing at her eyes.- I had convinced myself, both in that dream and in real life, that if you'd found someone you could be low key with, that you could keep a secret, you'd be fine and I just kind of took you for granted and... -She was rambling. Another sniff, and she shook her head to focus.-
But it's not... I'm so, so jealous of Kara. I'm jealous of what she's been able to do for you. I'm sorry... I think I would be even if the dream hadn't been so blunt about this.